Saturday, October 22, 2005.
Yesterday i met slim...
B4 making our way to beach rd,slim stopped near his place's bus stop to check his back tyre..he tot it was punctured n i had to get down while he inspect it..Luckily e tyre was fine n s slim was starting his bike,2 gal walked past him wif their eyes on him..i focus my eyes on slim n e 2 gals..he too was looking at dem n turmed his head til they left...n i was der!!!even if he meant s a joke..it aint funny!!!
his eyes were so flirty s if i wasnt der..dat got into me n i tol him directly dat i dont like him starin at dem like dat wif me ard!!!
he can stil assume dat he wasnt..n was just fooling ard..wat e ?!i sumhow managed to let go o' e issue but soon i was pondering on it... wen he did dat..i can feel i'm no longer wif e guy i first stead wif...e old him would nvr do dat...
its not me whose over-reacting on dis..but since e last incident..i sim to have doubts!!i cant help it!!i felt he doesnt respect me s his gaflfren wen he looked at dem dat way.. den i got to noe dat that they were his skool mates..y cant he tell me dat earlier?
sumtime part o' me is saying dat slim is sumhow playing wif my patience n love n even after he saw me hurting wif just one glance...:< if he were to rid dis..i'm sure h wnt agree but circumstances changed me totally...haiz..
Slim sumhow knew i was moody bcos of dat..we den bought kway teow goreng at Beach rd n ate it at East coast park..it was quite deserted n dark wen we reached der but soon..i saw quite a handful o' joggers,bladers n couples seating by e seaside.
After eating,slim brought mw to e jetty wher we spent a cosy evening 2geder...enjoying e breeze,wind frm e sea n enjoying each other's warmness n i lean against his body..
At dat moment..i tried my best to sumhow erased all e bad patch in my lovelife... just putting myself into a world dat belong to only me n slim...
dEn..slim started to get sleepy n took a short nap but i kept disturbing him..he den put his arms ard me n i just stared blankly into e sea,once a while peeking at slim..
just seeing e sea makes me realised dat i'm really troubled over "US"...over e past incident..
as e wave pull e sand to e sea..i was sumhow trapped btw 2 choices...shud i just let e pAst Go or is it worth trying?Haiz..
Slim was already half asleep so he doesnt know dat i was looking troubled..i wanted to talk to him bout dis but i sumhow knew dat he wil soon get bored o' dat..of evriting...
But den wen he woke up..i tot to myself...he's my boyfren..so i shud tell him so dat he can lessen e burden dat i'm having at e moment..
to my disappointment..he said he was thirsty n decided to leave..
Half-harted..i tagged along feeling bit down...
He den headed down to hg mall..i got my sis cheese fries n accompnied him to cheers to get his red bull..
he dropped me at e usual place..i kissed his face b4 he left,waved bye n made my way hm...
I'm confused now.. i tink my feelings for him r beginning to waver..or isit bcos i'm feeling too troubled?
if dis goes on.. i'm afraid i mite leave him.. haiz.. i still love him much2 stronger den e day he sound me..haiz
14/4/04 - 22/10/05... is his love for me stronger den b4?
m i being partial/patient n made e rite decision to stay on wif him if his love 4 me r nt strong s b4?
if its only 1 yr plus n if he does lose his feelings...wat will it b 4 me in 4,5,10yrs times? :< :::
i meant if..
"to erli,u've bcome indispensible 2 my life.so special 2 me n i guess its fate dat brought us 2geder.tings don go smoothly s
we wanted it 2 but i'm sure we'l make it tru.thick o thin we shall b 2geder 4 u n onli u r e world 2me..."
"A kiss is juz a kiss.a smile is just a smile.14 april is d day i've called u mine..happy 1 yr anniversary my dear.comas but no fullstops aite..love u always!"
now i dont get dat frm him often...
i'm still holdin on to dis words...his words... but for how long?
Lovin u makes me being true 2myself1:52 PM
WAts my name?nt important
i'M 20 dis yr on 19/2/85-leaving my Teen Yrs sOon
Sch?:Xinghua Pri Sch,PunggOL PRi,Serangoon Garden Technical,ITe COllege Central(MAcPherson)
Have an unpredictable temper(anger-management)
I'm not single..
AttaChed on 14.4.04
a poor guy has gone into my clutches,khekhe..
Going to 21 mths dis 14th Jan 06 wif SLim Totti..
Veri much in love wif him
GetTing Lil Gifts frm my b:SaLimie
Seeking Attention,utmosT Attention frm Him
Always Improving my attiTude For Him n Us
Writing Endless Poems Dat is InspiREd bY Him
Making pPL Ard me Laughing at my Bloopers n Funny Attitude
I luv Animals n hv 2 pet Cats dat Constantly lite up my days(Boboy n GurGirl)
TO stay bubbly n Excited Bout Making My JOurney wif Him By My Side
To Settle Down n hv an everLAstin Marriage n hv my Juniors..hehe..
TO get A perM job Soon
hope To have a wonderful n memorable class Reunion chalet on 20-1-06
Wish TO Celebrate my 21st bday wif my b,frens,cousins n family
Hopefully NO one Forgets My Bday
I want Presents!!lots o' DEM!!
new wallet(or shud i call it purse)
a silver/white goldpendant wif my name on it
a keychain wif my lover n my pic on it
Finally to look extremely gd on my bday
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